A soul unkept

Is it truelly possible to live a life clean with such a dirty soul?
I feel it pulling me down...
I ask why i live with such insecurities.
Could it be that i've been lied to many times in the past?
it just seems to never end...

You out of all people have stood by my side many a times
And i stood by yours and will carry on doing so
Although your words at time cause pain, we get over it..
Or i should say, i get over it.

Just thought i'd let the world know, I LOVE YOU <3
And i will hold you dear till the end of our time on this world

The days

These days that i wonder around aimlessly
I have thrown away the only thing that i have ever truely loved.
I feel like a corpse without a soul, i have no feeling left.
the darkness sounds like a truely pleasing place now, that i have shunned away the light that brought me hapiness. now what have i got?? i see nothing. just this barren land i see before me. i don't know who to trust anymore, fort what seemed to be a friend,turns into sweet betrayal. Ai, will i ever find hope again?? i hope so. we're born alone and we die alone. love is meant to hurt. fuck it.....

Am I ...?

Here I sit alone in the light
The darkness creeps in and I lose sight
I call out to you but no one's there
I'm losing touch, this isn't fair
My hair stands on end at the thought of what might
It never ends, in my mind, I fight

I feel alone and confused
I'd hate to find you amused
What is this I see before me?
A razorblade is what I see
I pick it up to slice away the pain
I don't, feelings are mutual, full of disdain

Am I the one to be ignored?
This is what happens when I get bored.

Just another day

New years resolutions.....kind of a "have to" you know. never done them, never had them. maybe i should try to start some. Set myself some goals that i know i'm going to break. think about it. who actually keeps their resolutions? if you do, you're of a dying breed. if you still make reslutions, you're part of a dying breed.

A day like this??

Caught in the rain...


with my love by my side


Hand in hand we run and touch the sky


A day like this should never end


But we both know that the time will come.


I hate it when it's time to say goodbye


It makes me feel as if it's time to die.

The sky fades away, the night air stands still


The things i could say to will be nill


For the hour is ours and just you I want


To talk is just a waste of time, your eyes say it all.


So here we are, alive and well


It is with you I choose, and hard I fell.

The never ending....

In these days of sad turmoil
I feel like being six feet under soil
For there is nothing to live for
This disdain life is just a bore

But then i sit up and think
Of all my memories past
Good times wasted, down the sink
This life spirals fast
Unable to grasp at the right time
This life is mine

Have i but things to regret?
Of coarse i do.....
But i wouldn't change a thing
Or else i wouldn't have met you.....